This one is for Kevin :)

I mean... I would date me.

Its always THAT one guy. You know, the one who makes your stomach turn, your head spin, and your heart jump? I swear I jump the gun when it comes to relationships. Its not like I need to be in one... I don't. But I do like the idea of stability and know where a relationship stands. The current is one that drives me up the walls and sends me into straight-jacket feeling. I'm absolutely infatuated with him. I think he's this wonderful human being, who can do so much and get so far in life. If only he would fucking see it too. He swears up and down that the world hates him. And I try (I reeeeally do) to be patient with his half-empty attitude. But sometimes a girl can only do so much for someone before she wants to feel a little appreciated.

Am I wrong?

I need to focus on me I guess. Just for the time being. I hate saying it; I feel so selfish. But seriously, I need "me" time.

“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging, and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that’s just fabulous.”

— Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City